Before any major surgery, your Drs will ask you if you have a strong support system around you to support you during the recovery period.
On WSPD16 I compared recovery from mental illness to an operation because you have to cut away at pieces of your mind that you never knew existed in order to work out the cause of the issues so that you can learn to manage them or move on. It is a major, daunting, and exhausting process. So, as with any recovery period, you need a strong support system around you.
Friends can catch you when you fall, hold you when it feels too difficult to stand on your own two feet, listen to you when you need to vent and keep you company when you can't find anything to say. It's easy to underestimate the power that these things have; they can be the difference between life and death. It's rare that something can carry that much weight, so it's only human to underestimate it.
I personally would have broken long ago without the help and support of my friends. My friends show me that there's good in the world, they believe in me and my strength to get through anything and everything. They keep me going.
That is the power of a strong support system; and if you think you aren't deserving of such a support system, just think. Maybe one day you can be a part of that for them. I know I've had the honour of returning the favour with a few friends, and even paid it forward by supporting strangers. That's one of the most beautiful and rewarding things you could ever do in your lifetime. If there was ever a reason to keep fighting, it's that.
Look around you...do you have a support system of friends who will stand by your side even when things go wrong, even if you make a mistake? Will they stand for you when you can't stand? If the answer is no, or if you aren't sure, maybe take a little time to reevaluate. I know I've found myself alone during tough times in the past because I picked the wrong people to surround myself with.
Find your people and hold them close.