"Deciding what to share and what not to share?"

When I first launched this website I promised to be 100% honest 100% of the time. I'm about to be super honest and say I don't lay all of my cards on the table all of the time. I don't lie, but there are things I keep to myself.

For example, recently I've been keeping my cards close to my chest regarding my current state of health. I'll go as far as to say I'm in a fair amount of pain most of the time, and the rest of the time it's pretty awful discomfort. I'll throw my hands in the air and say I'm scared and that my anxiety's worse than it's been in a couple of months. The one thing I won't say is what exactly is going on.

That's because there are some parts of my life that I want to keep to myself, plus I don't want to get constant messages of concern. This is because I'm an intensely emotional person, and I have a habit of taking on other peoples' emotions. I'm already worried and having regular panic attacks, so don't take it personally when I say I don't want to carry your worry on my back as well.

So as far as deciding what to share and what not to share goes...at the end of the day, this is a mental health website, so I don't feel guilty for not sharing the specifics of my current situation. I'm doing what's important in that I'm saying that my mental health's taking  a battering and I'm looking after myself throughout it all by not putting immense pressure on myself to have blog posts written three weeks in advance or published at 8am every day.

Believe me, I hate that the regularity of blog posts is suffering because of this rubbish situation. I just know that I'm currently in a position where I have to choose between having posts written in advance and my own sanity! Hopefully we'll be back to "normal" soon enough, but until then please forgive me for interfering with the routine I created in the first place.

Megan xx